And The Beat Goes On

Posted in Uncategorized on May 25, 2014 by SonoranWolf

Yesterday I went to the mortuary to retrieve my mother’s cremated remains. It was sobering to hold that small package in my hands and think that this is all that remains of the one who just 10 days before was alive and breathing.

The realization hit me that I am now profoundly and utterly alone. Yes I have friends and family who love me and whom I dearly love but this small box of desiccated mineral material was once the woman who gave me life, who prayed over me and nursed me when I was ill, who wept at my folly and rejoiced in my success. No one or nothing can ever fill the place vacated by her departure. 

The Sounds of Silence

Posted in Uncategorized on May 15, 2014 by SonoranWolf

Once again I sit here in my recliner. It’s getting warm outside and the sound of the air conditioning fills the room. Just a few scant hours ago the sound was the rhythmic whir and thump of an oxygen concentrator and the Moans and cries of my mother as she struggled mightily in her final battle. Now those sounds have been silenced and only the mechanical hiss and whir of the A/C takes their place.

My mother passed this morning just after 7:00 AM at age 88 years and 12 Days. She leaves behind 2 loving sons, 4 grandchildren and many great grandchildren. It’s never easy to say goodbye but Mom fought the good fight, loved her husband and children and tried to live her life in an upstanding manner. She saw her share of pain and reveled in moments of Joy. Now she is at peace.


Posted in Uncategorized on April 12, 2014 by SonoranWolf

The brightest day is crossed by shadows; the most glorious rainbow is born amid dark clouds. Every painting, or photograph, or tapestry is made up of light shades and dark. Without the darkness the light is meaningless, formless and void.

My life is filled with striving; struggle at work, at home, in my personal life and in my health. My aged mother lies in a hospice bed a few feet from where I’m sitting as I write this. Her moans of despair waft like smoke through the shadows as her life ebbs away. Every cough, every hiccup, every sigh is met with anxious, inquiring ears, ears that know all too well that each tortured breath may well be her last.

In all of this I refuse despair, I thrust it away and cry “Begone, you have no place with me!” The creator has given me this life and I will live it to the best of my ability with courage and grace and pray that when it is done the bright and dark colors and shades will combine to become a masterpiece, beautiful and unique with each part contributing to the whole in some way.

I can’t choose the cards but I can choose how I play the hand.

Walking Into A Minefield

Posted in Uncategorized on March 27, 2013 by SonoranWolf

Marriage is an inherently religious idea which has become entangled with civil law in virtually every country in the world. Here’s my take on it for what it’s worth.

In the United States, everyone is guaranteed “equal protection under the law” by our constitution. To me that means that everyone should be entitled to the same rights and privileges of a domestic union, regardless of what it’s called. If “domestic partnerships” are authorized in lieu of “marriage” they must confer the exact same rights and privileges granted to married partners; they should in fact be the identical legal construct as a marriage. This is just basic human rights and should be unquestioned.

With that being said, no religious body should be required by law to perform a ceremony of marriage nor should they be penalized for declining to do so. That is basic religious freedom and should be guarded regardless of whether we agree with their beliefs or not.

I would go a step further and completely sever the religious ceremony of marriage from the legal status inferred by it. People should be free to form and dissolve domestic unions regardless of the approval or lack of from any religious body. The state should define what marriage is and the legal and civil process for forming it without respect to the teaching and practices of any established religion. People obviously should be free to seek the blessing of their faith in forming a marriage but that blessing should have no bearing on how the state views it.


Posted in bondage, Love with tags , , , , , , , on January 2, 2013 by SonoranWolf


Freedom: the absence of or release from ties, obligations, etc. (7)

It is a paradox of the submissive’s mindset that she is never more free than when she is bound to a loving and honest Master. The submissive has the luxury to set aside external concerns and give her full attention to pleasing the One she serves; it is her destiny, her joy and her pleasure to do so.

Merry Christmas

Posted in Life, Love with tags , , , , , on December 24, 2012 by SonoranWolf


Here’s wishing you all the hope, joy, peace and beauty of the Christmas Season. May you “Live long and prosper.”

I Will Devour You

Posted in bondage, Love, Lust with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 20, 2012 by SonoranWolf


I will strip you bare and lay you out like a sacred feast. I will tie your limbs with strong cords. I will feast on your trembling flesh and savor every delightful morsel, slurping up the juices and wiping them from my face when I am finished. I will devour you, my love.


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